not now

not right now,
not at this moment,
im going to cry,
cry my little heart out,
you broke it once again,
now it cant be fixed,
not now,
not never,
why did you do this to me,
i thought you loved me,
i thought you cared about me,
but i guess it was all a freaking lie,
not now,
i cant stand it anymore,
i grab a knife,
and carve into my arm,
why did you brake me again,
i watch it bleed,
and make puddles,
not now,
and not ever